Stark Naked
I have no confidence in my work. I had to present my drawings to my client yesterday and I felt the way I usually do when I present my work: flabby and weak.
I am absolutely blind about what I produce;I have no idea what others see in my work. Which image is truly distorted? Is it the self-image or the one that others see? Who gets the best viewing?
In my drawing, my question isn’t ”am I fat or ugly” but rather the ultimate fear: ”am I a hack?” Fearing that I know the answer to that first question leads me to the next question: “will I be exposed?” Each presentation is a risk of exposure. So pathetic.
Posted by
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08:23:09
I know what you mean- Any work in the arts has an arbitrary standard to it- taste is all, really. It is art not science. Fortunately my work is very results oriented, but in music and poetry, seesh. Am I a hack? Don’t answer that.
I find that working alone in writing or music leaves me very open to counterproductive habits of thought. I need a little community to at least have some critical feedback. But you have clients. And clients are either satisfied or not. So if they are satisfied, then you are not a hack. You are doing your work.
But if you are seeking to accomplish something beyond the current tastes- who the hell knows? History is littered with artists who were revered one generation and ignored the next, or to be picked up again later.
My own opinion is that what I’ve seen is charming and elegant. I would like to see more. I’m glad you have this blog. It got me thinking about several things.
Funny, I feel a little intrusive commenting here…
but WTH. See you. Pete
I am quite taken up with your style.